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    Sunday, May 25th, 2008
    6:41 am
    Update...
    It's been a long time since I posted. It feels like I'm a completely different person than before (which is why I deleted a lot of entries, it was too embarrassing to have out there). I'm more grounded and centered now.

    Marc and I have been married 3 years now. We've been together for 6 years and living together for 4. He really is the love of my life. It's not perfect, but I think that's the beauty of being together. I think those opportunities give us the chance to learn about each other. We bought a house in 2006. We live in NJ near NYC. Still close to our families and where we grew up. My parents and I have been getting along too. I really enjoy being their daughter. I think not living in their house really helped our relationship grow.

    The only sad changes were the deaths in my family. My Grandmother passed away in 2006. She lived to 88 years old. It was 2 days before Chirstmas. It was very heartbreaking for all of us. My Mom has good and bad days. It's hard to know what to say. I know my Grandmother lived a full life and she was in a lot of pain towards the end. She was a very respected member of my family. Sometimes I just dial her phone number forgetting she's not on the other side. It's difficult not having her around to talk to. We believe that she died from Bone Marrow Cancer, but it the tests would have been too invasive to perform on her.

    Our cat Toby passed away in 2006. He was 6 years old. It was one of the hardest decisions that I've ever had to make in my life. It's been hard letting him go because he was my baby. At the animal shelter, he jumped in my arms and wouldn't let me put him down. All he did was show us love and affection through his whole life. He had kidney failure along with blockage in his urinary tract. He had one intense surgery and a month later he wasn't himself. We were about to move into our new house and we thought the change would be too much for him. It was very difficult to put him down. There's not a day that goes by that I wish I could have done more for him. Toby was a very special animal and I miss him very much.

    We adopted our cat Simon two months after Toby passed away. He's a big orange fluff ball. He was 4 months old and already 10 pounds. Now he's 2 years old and 16 or 17 pounds. He was abused before we got him and it took a very long time for him to come around. In the beginning he would attack us and bite us with no signals. Majority of the attacks were sneak attacks or if we had to move him from somewhere. For some reason, he doesn't like me on the phone and in the beginning, he would just maul my legs. Since he's a fluff ball, he has to get brushed at least 3 times a week, which was difficult. Cutting his nails was always a challenge too. Now we use positive reinforcement training and he's just blossomed into a new cat. Most of it has been done through training with food. If he gets brushed, we feed him little samples of food to forget what's going on. Now he sleeps on our laps and give us kisses. Sometimes he'll let us hold him. I can't imagine not having Simon in our lives now. With Toby is was always comforting to know that he was always ready to love us no matter what. With Simon, we had to earn love and trust from him. In a way, it feels more rewarding. Now we want to adopt a dog. We have certain breeds in mind, but it's hard finding them in shelters.

    I'm still an artist and still moving towards becoming a wildlife artist. Last year I had PRK surgery to correct my vision. I think it took my art to another level and I'm very happy with how it turned out. I've been using my art for volunteer opportunities. I've been working on some things for Husky House (www.huskyhouse.org) and the National Zoo in DC. Here are some recent additions. If anyone reading this would like to see more you can visit my website www.sketchmypet.net or my flickr page www.flickr.com/photos/sketchmypet/













    Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
    11:06 am
    pictures of the wedding!


    PICTURES FROM THE WEDDING!!!


    OK IF YOU WANT TO SEE BETTER QUALITY OF THESE PICTURES AND MORE VISIT MY PHOTOBUCKET ALBUM

    HERE IS THE LINK:
    http://photobucket.com/albums/v208/valentineheart/wedding/

    Now keep in mind that these are not the profession pictures! Although my family took pictures when the photographer posed me or other people.

    this is me in my room (new furniture was put in since I moved out).




    Me and my bridesmaids


    Christine and Amy (Amy was my Matron of Honor, Christine was a bridesmaid both are my cousins)


    I like this picture because it shows off my veil. I think my Aunt was helping me with my shoes at this point.


    This is a picture of my brother Derrick (who was also a groomsman), my Mom, me, and My dad.


    This was a sexy picture they set me up for.


    A picture of My Mom, me, my Grandma, and my Aunt.


    At the same time at Marc's house. A picture of Greg, Marc's Mom, Marc's Dad, and Jim. (Greg was the Best Man and Jim was a groomsman.)


    Same set up but Marc's parents are switched and they're inside the house.


    Me and my Dad getting out of the fancy Rolls Royce. This is at the church entrance.


    Marc and Greg at the altar. Marc looks so scared! He told me he was but then he saw me and was ok. Weird that we both had the same feelings!


    Here is my brother taking my Mom down the aisle. Look how happy she is! Isn't her dress awesome? She got it made special for the wedding! In the background you can see Jenelle, my best friend that I lost for 5 years and found again through the internet. Our wedding was our first meeting in 5 years!


    My Dad walking me down the aisle. He was almost running! I kept having to say "Slow down Dad!" through my smile.


    Us at the altar with Father Steven


    Another one so you can see the pretty flowers.


    Mom's lighten the candles so we can do the unity candle.






    We stopped down the aisle to say that we loved my Grandma.




    Our Reception room.


    Our first dance.


    Greg's speech.





    Our cake it has MVE M for Marc, V for our last name and E for Erica, me.




    They played "Lets Get Ready to Rumble" while we were cutting the cake. I got nervous and this is a photo of me reminding him how long it took for me to get my makeup done that morning. He didn't shove the cake in my face, he was nice. Greg was disappointed in us.
    Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
    8:50 am
    I'M MARRIED!!! I'M TYPING THIS ENTRY AS A MARRIED WOMAN!!

    Wow there is so much to talk about I don't know where to start. First I have to say that I don't have pictures on the computer yet, (although I kept saying to people to email me the freaking pictures!). When I get home I'm buying a new computer so I will be scanning the pictures!

    THE DAY WAS AN ABSOLUTE DREAM COME TRUE!!! This will probably be a long entry. We're leaving for Italy today, but I wanted to get on here instead of sleep. So this hour is for you guys!

    Saturday

    Saturday I was nervous. I did some last minute shopping, went to see my makeup artist LaShell, and packed up for the night at my parents house and the wedding night.

    My mom and dad had a dinner at their house with a lot of the people that flew in for the wedding. It was great. Marc was there for a bit and people met him for the first time. They kept saying that he is very handsome (which I already knew :-)) and that we're going to be so happy as husband and wife.

    I went to be early, but didn't get that much sleep. I just kept thinking about Marc and how much I love him. Plus, I kept thinking that I wished I was sleeping with him and our cat in our own bed (it was my first time sleeping without one of them at least!)

    Sunday Wedding Day

    Woke up at 6:00 and started whiting my teeth. My Aunt was already up and running around so it woke me up too. I ended up playing a game on my cell phone to kill time. Then I had a quarter of a bagel and set out to get my hair done at 9:00.

    My hair was really cool. It was up and little pearls inside the do to make them stand out. My veil was set in my hair with the same trim as my dress. It was something we asked for when we went to the designer. It was a real nice touch. Left the hair salon.

    Then I went into panic mode. I realized that I needed something to wear that showed my back so LaShell could work on my makeup on my back. My mom whipped out one of her old halter tops from the 70's for me to wear. (At that point I had my veil on, jeans, and this halter...I looked a bit trailer trash.) Regardless of my complaints, people were taking pictures of me getting makeup done in that outfit. In the end I let them so it was cool. LaShell is awesome, he's one of my boys now. He was doing my makeup for 2 hours so we were talking about EVERYTHING. He said he can't wait to use me in his portfolio, and he was really taken back by my parents house.

    Then my Aunt and my Mom put me in my dress. My Aunt started crying because with all the weddings that she had with her sons, she never helped the bride get ready. She said that it was an honor and I told her that she's my Aunt and my Godmother, so I was the one that was honored. She helped me with my shoes and putting on the garter. It was really cute. After that my mom says, "Erica clean up your room so it will be ready for the photographer.) I learned something very quick in that first minute. I had a very big dress, and moving was not going to be easy. I yelled at my mom that if she wanted me to clean up that it would have been a heck of a lot easier to do NOT in my wedding gown!

    Mom finished getting ready, my bridesmaids showed up. They helped finish doing the buttons on my dress. Then the photographer came and took pictures of me in my room, my parent's room, my parent's sitting room, my parent's dinning room, my parent's great room, plus also outside, with the girls, without the girls, with my parents, without my parents, with my aunt, without my aunt, with my brother, without my brother, etc. 2 hours with photos. It was something else. The one thing I didn't realize before, my dress was falling down. Since it was a strapless, heavy, and I lost weight, not a good deal. My bra kept sticking out over the dress, and people had to put their hands inside my dress and fix it the whole time with pictures and the church ceremony! We called it "BRA WATCH" Everyone kept saying that I was beautiful. A lot of people said I was the best looking bride they ever saw, I thought "Wow I look fantastic! I can't wait for Marc to see me!"

    The limo and Rolls Royce show up, coming down the driveway playing "Here Comes The Bride" on their horns! I was jumping up and down (mostly out of excitement and relief that we were not going to be late). I run out side to see them and they were gorgeous! I couldn't get over it! I told everyone that I wanted to be 15 minutes early, no matter what people said. I want the wedding to start ON TIME and that was it.

    So we left for the church. A lot of people were walking in and got to see me in the limo with my Dad. Of course they wanted a peak of me so I was shouting from down the stairs, "NO PEAKING! GET INSIDE!" They all laughed. I had a quick little chat with my Dad out of nerves, "Dad you like Marc right?" "I do like him, but I'm not the one that has to honey!" "I know I'm just nervous" "I know sweetheart, but you both love each other very much and are perfect for each other. I've never seen you fight, if you did you took care of it right away and handle everything with maturity. Marc would do anything for you because you love him and he loves you. You're nervous now, but as soon as you get up to the altar it will go away when you see him. You'll know that it's right and they're will be no fear." Just the pep talk I needed. They took pictures of my father and me in the Rolls, and then we were off.

    Big problem...stairs and my dress. I realized that going UP STAIRS really sucked more than anything because I could step on the many layers of my dress. With some miracle I didn't trip and fall down once during the day. Like I said, I had a big dress. So with going into the many stairs of the church, I grabbed all the bottom of my dress, and ran up it. It was a funny site for a lot of late people going into the church. I didn't care how it looked at that point. I'm sure people say my cute wedding panties, but I didn't care. I really didn't want a skinned knee and ripped dress before we said our vows!

    We get in, laughing because of the site of me running with the dress. It was a good mood breaker. I go off to the side with my girls and so far we're doing ok. Not one tear for the day, no makeup problems. Then I see her. She comes up to my father and says, "Mr.___ do you remember me?" I best friend that I haven't seen in 7 years. I lost contact with her and had to find her on the internet. I found her maybe 4 months ago and we've been talking and crying on the phone every since. I new I couldn't get married without her seeing it! I started to cry and my Matron of honor got pissed. My father started to cry, and that was it. All of a sudden it got really emotional. She said, "Who is this making you cry as soon as you're leaving for the altar!? Who is this person, you didn't cry once all day today!?" I explain to her who she is, and she said, "Shit, I'm crying now too!" (yes she cursed in the church) We pulled each other together, fixed the sight damage to our makeup, and got the show on the road.

    The girls waked down the aisle first to Pachelbel's Canon in D. Then my father brings me out and I see Marc's face. I saw him take a deep breath and get this huge smile on his face. I could see it all the way from the entrance. I walked down the aisle with my father. He was walking kind of fast and I kept saying through my teeth, "Slow down Dad!" I reach the altar and there was Marc. My Dad was right, everything went away. He had tears in his eyes. My Dad lifted off my blusher veil and gave me a kiss on the cheek. Marc took my hand and the priest had a huge smile on his face. It really was one of those moments that stays with you. I pictured it for as long as I knew Marc and was in love with him. Now I was experiencing one of the most amazing things that was ever to happen to me.

    The ceremony was picture perfect. Everything was so special. I, somehow, was very composed as we said our vows and placed the rings on each other's finger. The only thing that kind of went wrong was Marc's ring. I had a hard time getting it on (LONG entry later, we got another one the day after the wedding) despite I knew I got the right size for him! Plus my dress. I had to keep picking it up during the whole ceremony! I never imagined fixing my boobs so my bra didn't show at my wedding ceremony! I know it didn't look good and a lot of people found humor in it, but it honestly NEEDED to be done or Everyone would have saw ALL my bra.

    I did get one major compliment during the day. One family friend brought her little daughter to see the wedding, she's 3. They were the family I was telling to go inside the church, no peaking at the bride! The reason they didn't go in was because her daughter insisted that I was Cinderella and she had to see Cinderella! I guess my hair is pretty blonde after all! While I was walking down I could hear her say to her mom, "Mom I told you she was here! Look at Cinderella! Look how wonderful she is!" It was really a huge compliment for me to hear. I love kids.

    So after the ceremony, we walked to outside for our pictures and champagne toast. It was fantastic to experience. People crying saying how beautiful I looked with tears in their eyes. It was really something. Plus all the cars honking on the road as they passed the church, I was in love with the day. It was complete magic.

    After that we went to the reception. I ended up taking the bra off before the Cocktail hour. My girls had to help me with it, but they were able to get it off and lift it off through the dress. I must admit it looked much better afterwards too! It was a picture book fairy tale. A lot of people said it was the best wedding they ever attended. I believe it, going by all the people that spent most of the night dancing. The band was the best. The Blitz Band really rocked the whole wedding.

    I'm not going into most of the reception now, because I really need to finish stuff in order to go to leave for Italy at 12. I really hope everyone liked what I had to say. Sorry about no pictures. I promise the next entry will be LOADED!

    I realized last night that being husband and wife doesn't feel that much different. The love is the same, but the title is bigger. We are for life.
    Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
    3:30 pm
    Just a comparison

    A picture of my brother (with my mom) and a picture of Keanu Reeves



    Does anyone else see a resemblence? I swear I could shoot him for not being a model, but then again he would think it's a homo-type thing to do and not his scene. To think I was the one who was in modeling somewhat. My mom was a model. You would not believe me if I told you her age. I've had family parties where my friends were invited, 2 out of 3 guys asked her out, the other one asked me for my hot friend's number. I actually had to come over to them and say, "Dude could you stop flirting with my mom already." So does he look like Keanu? Whenever I see one of his movies I can't help but think of my brother.

    Current Mood: curious
    Monday, May 3rd, 2004
    5:02 pm
    Marc and I had a really romantic weekend. I'm just on cloud 9 right now.

    Friday night, he shows up at my house with a bouquet of a dozen beautiful roses. Not only that, but he bought me a vase that's pretty cool. It's made out of multicolored glass. It's really something (i'll post a picture of it later). That alone melted my heart; it was very sweet of him. I love that he knows my taste inside and out.

    Saturday, he kept where he was taking me a secret, just that I should dress up nice for it. He said that he was going to get a haircut, and I thought I should get one too. So, he went and did his thing, and said that he would pick me up at 5:00. I went out got a haircut, and bought a new outfit at Express.

    At 5 he came to pick me up, he was dressed to kill in his suit. He really liked the outfit that I bought too, and of course he made some sexy remarks about it . He gave a few more gifts: body lotion, perfume, a purse, a silk robe and some lingerie all from Victoria's Secret. I always wanted a silk robe, and the best part is that it's pink! hehehe.

    We left to go to our "destination" which I still no clue about. I had a feeling it was in the city because he mentioned that we were taking the ferry over. We got on the ferry and it was pretty cool having everyone look at us all dressed up. A couple of people flashed us some smiles and had that look of, "aww look at them". It was cute.

    When we docked at NYC he told me that we didn't have to walk far. Then, I had a feeling what was planned. A cruise dinner around the New York City harbor! I had a feeling this was going to be some date. It was the most romantic date I've ever been on. We couldn't have been in a more perfect setting. Seeing New York City at sunset and at night is spectacular. We were on the Yacht "The Princess" it was exquisite. Every thing was sparkling, from the brass to the crystal. There was a DJ playing romantic slow music. During the breaks with our food, we were either slow dancing or out on the deck looking at the scenery. I wish he told me to bring my camera because it really is remarkable to see the city by boat. At one point we got up close to the Statute of Liberty. At that point, it was night, so the spotlights on her. It was magnificent to see her and it really brought tears to my eyes.

    It would have been the perfect night for him to purpose. We commented on it. I told him that he's just going to have to outdo himself. He replied with "how can I top this?" which is true, that was the dates out of all the dates. It defiantly was the finest. We did decide to start looking at rings together, which was nice.

    Slow dancing with him was more than perfect. I have a feeling, that's when most couples feel "in love". I don't know what else to say other than it felt like heaven. It felt like we were another time all alone. Cheesy, I know, but it honestly felt that way.

    Well, just wanted to give you guys the scoop.


    Take care,
    Erica





    Positives

    1. Marc emailed me today.
    2. I had an awesome weekend.
    3. I got an 85 on my muscle quiz.
    4. The work day is almost done.
    5. I have a feeling we'll get out of class early tonight.

    Current Mood: chipper
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